[It was a test, of sorts. Just a way to ask his "future" self how to feel. How often do you have that kind of opportunity? At least it looks like, on the topic of Swallow, his and the other Rindo's views align.
He sighs. This is just… messed up. Maybe he didn't disappoint Swallow back in her timeline when she met him in person, but here and now is another matter entirely. Of course she's disappointed that he's not the Rindo she's come to appreciate. He knows that—he'll never forget how heartbroken she looked when she realized he didn't recognize her.
Conflicting feelings arise—bitter shame at failing her, defiant anger at not even being given a chance to do anything but.
He shouldn't be here. He can't even be himself right, and it's not a high bar to clear.]
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<rindragon> cw: implied suicidal ideation
Date: 2023-05-21 03:26 am (UTC)[It was a test, of sorts. Just a way to ask his "future" self how to feel. How often do you have that kind of opportunity? At least it looks like, on the topic of Swallow, his and the other Rindo's views align.
He sighs. This is just… messed up. Maybe he didn't disappoint Swallow back in her timeline when she met him in person, but here and now is another matter entirely. Of course she's disappointed that he's not the Rindo she's come to appreciate. He knows that—he'll never forget how heartbroken she looked when she realized he didn't recognize her.
Conflicting feelings arise—bitter shame at failing her, defiant anger at not even being given a chance to do anything but.
He shouldn't be here. He can't even be himself right, and it's not a high bar to clear.]